She..

She sat there.
Alone in that room that was hers.
Feeling tired of challenges.
Tired of everything.
She sat there in total darkness..

She didnt even want to go out of her room... Others might notice her, thats what she thought. Any other day it wouldnt have meant a damn thing. But today it did. She wanted to be invisible. She thought of her life. She wondered how much more she needed to suffer, how many more tears she would need to shed in silence before she got the chance to be whole, before she got the chance to feel total happiness.

She felt extremely lonely that night as she penned her thoughts down. She wondered, Why?? Why the loneliness, when there are so many people who loved her.. So many people who praised her for her ability to conquer the unconquerable, her ability to challenge her own fate. So many, she thought. So many? So few. For those few who meant heaven and earth to her. Why did she love people so much? She did so much for them expected nothing in return. Or should I say nothing much in return. Except maybe hear their voice once in a while, to feel their love? But she dint want to believe that was a selfish thought. These people whom she wanted to talk to were too busy in their own worlds at the moment. Maybe they do think of her but for her that message needs to be felt rather than told. She sat there, wishing she could speak to them at that moment. She felt so angry, upset all at the same time! Whoa!! What a mix of emotions she felt. She also knew that every problem had a solution and eventually she would find one. But she was dying for a pat on her back, or a hug, a kiss on the forehead. But at that moment it was impossible...

She sat there and told herself that in a couple of hours she will be normal, her worries and apprehensions kept safely locked away somewhere inside that mind of hers, as she wakes up to another morning and tells herself that all is fine. And never talks about it ever again...

Maybe this was a life of a woman...